Jason 1983~2007

On Tuesday, February 20th, my little brother Jason headed out early to take his little boy Brayden to preschool. On the way to the car he fell, hitting his head. A neighbor alerted Jamie and she called 911 before rushing to his side. Being the stubborn guy that he is, he insisted that she call them back and tell them he was fine. Before she could, however, his speech began to slur and he started having a seizure. He was able to regain consciousness and speak to Jamie before the ambulance arrived, but when they pulled away he was having trouble breathing. Mid way to the hospital his heart stopped beating. They worked on him for forty minutes but they were unable to revive him.

I was in the ER helping take care of my nephews when I heard the news. At first I just felt disbelief. It wasn’t long, however, before the tears came. Despite the difficulty of it all, I have felt an underlying peace. Just two days before the accident we held a family fast for Jason. Almost two years have passed since he was involved in a dirt biking accident that nearly took his life and since that time he has been living in severe pain. Although he never complained, at times it seemed as though it was just too much for him to bear. We had been praying and fasting for a miracle and while this wasn’t what we were hoping for, I know it was what he needed and I am grateful he no longer suffers. I love the way Brigham Young describes it:

"We shall turn around and look upon it (the valley of death) and think, when we have crossed it, why this is the greatest advantage of my whole existence, for I have passed from a state of sorrow, grief, mourning, woe, misery, pain, anguish and dissapointment into a state of existence where I can enjoy life to the fullest extent as far as that can be done without a body. My spirit is set free, I thirst no more, I want to sleep no more, I hunger no more, I tire no more, I run, I walk, I labor, I go, I come, I do this, I do that, whatever is required of me, nothing like pain or weariness, I am full of life, full of vigor, and I enjoy the presence of my Heavenly Father."

Although it still seems impossible to comprehend life without him, I rejoice in my knowledge of the plan of salvation and I look forward to the day when I will see him again.